Never Safe With You

I am, neurodivergent, 

Exactly what I’ve said is what my words meant,

We’re unheard when

People see the mask and think that that’s the person

How perturb’n

We fell in love and had emotions surging

“You’re safe with me”

Then the mask slips and the relationship is curtains

I put the work in,

To be “normal”, but I’ll never be a Norman
Yet, 
I’m rewarded

With unreal expectations of interpersonal performance
And 
I conformed when

I could, but that just set me up for torrents

of tears and fears

Because jeers came from the one issuing warrants

Who I adored and

wanted to be with but she judged me as abhorrent

After dismissing my pleas for help,

and understanding with my comportment

How unfortunate

That’s it’s come to this,
a not so fond adieu

I should have known deep in my bones,
That I was never “safe with” you